Hello again.........

Hello out there. I decided to start blogging again to remember this time in my life and children's lives as well as what the Lord is doing. I am fighting stage three Lyme disease and what that means is my memory is horrible. I can not remember alot of things. I wake up some mornings and can not feel anything below my head or use my limbs. It has attacked me neurologically and my nervous system. I tell you this not for sympathy but for understanding as you who know me I am not exactly the same as I once was but do any of us want to be. Don't we want the Lord to prune us however and whatever it takes.
To my wonderful friends work sheand another have found a support group in KC and a specialist that just happens to know my doctor who comes with a high recommendation. Utter relief came from that as well as when they decided to do a pic line (big word for fancy IV) and get more aggressive because I am going down hill.
I have the best hubby in the world that has Lyme too (yes you can Pass it that way and by breast feeding) He has stage two. He works very hard and they think he will be much better in a year to a year and a half. But he still works and takes care of us...... My job he graciously does. My two children never breast fed well. wow the Lord definitely knows what he is doing. All the tears then that fell in sadness fall now in great fullness because they do not have it badly at all and the doctor thinks we can teach them to fight it themselves w/o all that we are doing for us big people. We just do as healthy of a diet as possible and a vitamin regimen which they think is great. They have become very giving and sweet as well as protective and I pray the Lord will use this to shape them.
I write this to you so when I am not around maybe it is a little more clear why.
I write it because it feels good to get my thoughts out so you never know what you might find here as I journal this journey but one of the things it has taught me alot about is....... the family of God and how there help is vital. They have all been so wonderful.

I hear the pattering of size 9.5 and 7 feet so I must go for now but thanks for letting me send my thoughts into the void.....

One more thing I know : I have a God who can do anything, knows everything, and loves me and that is all I need for this day.

Enjoy your day and praise the Lord for how He refines you to be more like Him.